24.4.11

The Story Of Me; Disappear

I remember the first time, but it wasn't the last time, that you told me you'd take me back. So I'm still wondering why there was never a question. I should've learned my lesson and I keep coming back like a heart attack that's always breaking.
I can't let you vanish, there's no magic when you're gone
you say you don't need me you say it's time to leave me and I don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna believe it. I'm not gonna let you disappear
I don't wanna be lonely, but you are always the only one who'd cast a spell and make it feel like all of this was real. Nothing but an illusion but I'm not gonna lose you. So just do your trick and make it quick because i'm pretending. Dont go! because I need you in my side.
I know if you with her, but I always in your behind and I'll support. no matter what happen, I want you be MINE!
II don't care if you already have a thousand girlfriend, because I want YOU more than EVERYTHING!
I'm not gonna let you disappear like the wind! you always be my shadow!
Sometimes you have to be apart from the ones you love, but that doesn't make you love them less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. -The Last Song-
XOXO

Leony

22.4.11

The Story Of Me; Still hoping on you

I don't have idea. I don't know how until now I still hoping you, although I know you with her now. when I saw your picture, I had an idea to stolen it, but I didn't.
Yeah.. this feel make me crazy. I always smile when I saw your picture. and when I saw your message with her, my smile was gone.
sometimes you are in my dreams, you smile at me, you hold my hand, you make me laugh, you say 'I love you'. that the sweet dreams I had with you.
but that dream always gone when she in your behind and suddenly she hugged you. yeah, it make me hurt. very hurt.
sometimes in my dream, when she hugged you, I' pulled you away from her and then I hugged and kissed you. LOL (keep dreaming Leony)
I love the way you are, you make me laugh, even on Facebook, you make me comfortable while flying next to you, you cheers me up when my day so sad, and you waste my tears.
I'll take all memories when I'm with you. when we are played basketball, when you came to my house cause I'm alone in my house.
yeah, all sweet memories we had I'll take it forever. cause almost every minute, that memories always in my mind.
take care, my Boy. I always in your behind and saw you happy with her. you're too mean for me.
Isn't it crazy how the world is billions of people, and yet one person can mean the world.
XOXO

Leony

17.4.11

The Story Of Me; Lonely

The last time I met you was last week. since last week, I can't met you, even when yesterday monday until wednesday you doesn't came to GO for Try Out. you doesn't came because, first, your dad is sick and he in Hospital. second, you had Try Out too at your school. that's why you doesn't came.
I feel so lonely without your jokes and laugh. I missing it, especially I miss you.
I want to talk with you on Facebook, but I'm so afraid if your girlfriend mad at me. I don't want like that.
I want to call you, but I don't know how.
yeah, I missing you so much, it like I missing my friend. I want you to as someone who special for me, but it so impossible.
do you know if I miss you?
yeah, I guess you don't know cause you're so busy with your girlfriend
I hope only can meet with you for the last time, see your smile and your face. it will make me happy and waste the last time I met with you.
and I hope you happy with here no matter what, even it should hurting my heart and lying with myself. I only want you to happy.
I wish that I was mad at you but I'm not. I wish I didn't care like you don't but I do. and I wish I could go back to wen everything was great but I can't

XOXO

Leony

12.4.11

The Story Of Me; Too long

Oh, please. I hope you'll notice this feeling. but it already too long I'm waiting. and I knew if you already have her, but please, I hope you will understand.
didn't realize you I'm a girl? I couldn't start
didn't realize you have to hang myself? I don't want to waiting.
I don't want to waiting too long. this heart always yelling your name all the time. I can't stop this feeling. we're too long so close and you make my feeling like this.
before you had her, all people said if we're like a couple. but I always said we're just friend, but I'm always hope we can be like that.
my little heart always feel hoping when all people said like that. and sometimes my heart act like cheersleader. I know it ridicilous, but I feel like that.
I don't know how long this situation it's on. and I always remains every second if you had her. I feel guitly because this feeling I can't hidded forever.
I'll change it with the way I'm gonna forget this feeling and forget you.
how can I do that if almost everyday I meet you?
I need answer about this feeling. should I keep this feeling until you break up with her? should I forget this feeling and forget you?
I'm confused, I need something answer the best.
for the continous I'll more stronger than before.

always remember that: Hard work makes you stronger, Mistakes makes you smarter, Success keeps you in shape, Sadness makes you human, Happiness makes you sweet


XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; I'm missing the one who used to make me happy all the time!

I'm missing someone who always make me laugh all the time. I'm missing someone who always make me smile. I'm missing someone who make me happy all the time and I'm missing someone who make my days so colorful.
guess who I mean. yeah.. It's YOU. You always do that. but now I'm missing you so much.
since you had girlfriend, you never make me laugh like before. I feel like invisible in your side or only me ignored you? hm.. I don't know. sometimes I looked at you when you not look at me. it make me sad.
I'm cheers me up with I realized I'm still have friends. they will make me with those feeling.
but it still same, I feel missing the important thing in my life. without that, I'm nothing.
yeah I can't forget about that feeling. but I'm trying to forget it. I don't know why. I should remains by myself if you already with her. but it doesn't work. I still want you in my life.

It was easy to meet you, it was beautiful to love you, but it is hard to forget you.

XOXO

Leony

11.4.11

The Story Of Me; I still care with you

I don't want our friendship broke again because this problem. I want you still become my best friend, maybe I want become your girlfriend (only in your dream, Leony).
I'll always in your side when you need me. I'll become a good listener when you tell me about your girl, it so hard for me and I must have a great patient to be your good listener. cause if I don't have it, I'll cry all of the time in front of you.
let you tell me about your life, let you tell me about your problem, and that's way I'll know you so well.. and I'll tell you about everything. when you know if I love you, you'll understand why I always be like this.
when I tried to not care with you anymore, I can't. when you sick, my heart not so clam. my heart always asked "Is he fine?" that always on my mind all of the time.
I know if I'm not should like that, but I can't help it. I want to know about your condition. although I'm only your friend, but I can be like that cause I'm being act like I'm fine and your friend. I never can tell you about my feeling.
Please, I hope I can have a chance to tell you about this feeling. if you can't accept this, it's okay for me. I don't care if you will mad at me. I only hope you will understand

How much you hate her/him, in your little heart still care about them

XOXO

Leony

10.4.11

The Story Of Me; What I feel V.S What I know

I feel so in love with you. I want you in my side. I want you waste my tears, make me happy, and always protection me.
but it only in my dream, even in my dream I feel want to cry.
I know you already had her. I know if you love her. I know you always in her side, not my side. you always talking about her with me. I only can smile and said "I'm glad you had her", but there's a storm in my heart and it rains from my eyes. I don't know what should to do now. I feel like lost my way.
there's a war in heart. in one side, I feel guitly because I love you but I know if he have a girlfriend now. and the other side, I want you. I really want you to be my side. I love you like he love her. I don't know how to cope these feeling and problem.
only one I can to do, I let you happy with her and I'm not bother them. it remember me with the movie I watch, 'Boy Before Flowers', I am a Kim Hyung Joon, I let the someone I love happy with other.
you know what, even I don't know your girlfriend. I only know her name (I don't want to tell her name) and that because Facebook I can know her name. she looks (from her profil picture on Facebook) beautiful, cute and sweet. I think she's a 'Mbak Gahol' (do you know what I mean?)
I'll let you with her, although there's a scar in my heart. but I'm happy if you happy. sometimes I hope you'll break up with her (evil though). I'm wait.
it harder to forget this feel. because almost everyday I meet with you. but I try to cope this feel. I become a little more crazy because this feeling.

Everyday just gets a little bit harder, and everyday I try and cope with the pain and the stress hoping that one day, I'll wake up and everything will be okay again.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; The sadness moment

I never thought can be like this. I never feel like this before. you're my close boy-friend at the Subjects Course. every I'm in you side, my heart always beating. I can't help it. and I look at his eyes, OMG, I can't stop smile and make me so guitly.
why I feel guitly? it because you already had a girlfriend now since I told you if I was already had a boyfriend, but I'm lied. I'm so regret already told you like that, cause after I told like that you looked like disapointed or something like that. you asked her to be his girlfriend it 5 days after I told you.
my heart broken when I knew about that news. I know that news from Facebook. I saw on 'Home' and you change your 'Relationship Status' became 'In Relationship'. I don't know what should I do now. my the one chance already gone. actually I have plan to tell you if I love you.
I'm so jealous with them. you always 'Wall To Wall' with your girlfriend on facebook, you do that cause your cell phone confiscated by his parents. so you contact with your girlfriend from there and it make me super jealous.
Until now I'm still regret about what already I told you, that day when I told if I already have boyfriend, my mood not good. cause when I'm online on Facebook, someone I even don't know chatting with me. he introduced about him and I am too. then he (maybe you will surprising) PURPOSE ME! can you believe it! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! can he realized if I'm still younger to like that? and when I said no, he still said "PLEASE" (on my mind that time: WHAT THE HELL HE THINKING? HE'S A FREAK AND CRAZY MAN!) and because that incident, I told him (the boy who I love) if I already have a boyfriend.
I hope I could turn back the time and said if I love you. but it impossible for me. almost every I'm at Subjects Course, I want to cry. I can't help myself when I saw your face in one room with me. how could I can lied at you that night? but when finally I can get you, I afraid after we're break up or something like that, our friendship will destroyed too. but I'm sure, the friendship never be like that. and I never can be his girlfriend.
Love never ruins a friendship. If a friendship was ruined by love, ask again, was it really love - Outrageous (GlamTeen; Heart To Heart)

XOXO

Leony

9.4.11

The Planning

I already think. I want to give you a story about me.
I want share about a whole world from my point of view. all my problem from friendship until love.
I'd love it so much, though.
but it's not like continous story. all story I write it's different.
agree? okay I know you'll agree. and the title is 'The Story Of Me'
it will be huge! :D

XOXO Love - Leony

The National Exam Junior High School 2011

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG!!!
Almost 2 or 3 weeks again The Natinal Exam will come! I can't wait and a little worry.
I hope I can pass with excellent results and can in my dream high school, 5 high school.
Amen! :D
*optimitic!*

The Story Of Me; Disappear

I remember the first time, but it wasn't the last time, that you told me you'd take me back. So I'm still wondering why there was never a question. I should've learned my lesson and I keep coming back like a heart attack that's always breaking.
I can't let you vanish, there's no magic when you're gone
you say you don't need me you say it's time to leave me and I don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna believe it. I'm not gonna let you disappear
I don't wanna be lonely, but you are always the only one who'd cast a spell and make it feel like all of this was real. Nothing but an illusion but I'm not gonna lose you. So just do your trick and make it quick because i'm pretending. Dont go! because I need you in my side.
I know if you with her, but I always in your behind and I'll support. no matter what happen, I want you be MINE!
II don't care if you already have a thousand girlfriend, because I want YOU more than EVERYTHING!
I'm not gonna let you disappear like the wind! you always be my shadow!
Sometimes you have to be apart from the ones you love, but that doesn't make you love them less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. -The Last Song-
XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Still hoping on you

I don't have idea. I don't know how until now I still hoping you, although I know you with her now. when I saw your picture, I had an idea to stolen it, but I didn't.
Yeah.. this feel make me crazy. I always smile when I saw your picture. and when I saw your message with her, my smile was gone.
sometimes you are in my dreams, you smile at me, you hold my hand, you make me laugh, you say 'I love you'. that the sweet dreams I had with you.
but that dream always gone when she in your behind and suddenly she hugged you. yeah, it make me hurt. very hurt.
sometimes in my dream, when she hugged you, I' pulled you away from her and then I hugged and kissed you. LOL (keep dreaming Leony)
I love the way you are, you make me laugh, even on Facebook, you make me comfortable while flying next to you, you cheers me up when my day so sad, and you waste my tears.
I'll take all memories when I'm with you. when we are played basketball, when you came to my house cause I'm alone in my house.
yeah, all sweet memories we had I'll take it forever. cause almost every minute, that memories always in my mind.
take care, my Boy. I always in your behind and saw you happy with her. you're too mean for me.
Isn't it crazy how the world is billions of people, and yet one person can mean the world.
XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Lonely

The last time I met you was last week. since last week, I can't met you, even when yesterday monday until wednesday you doesn't came to GO for Try Out. you doesn't came because, first, your dad is sick and he in Hospital. second, you had Try Out too at your school. that's why you doesn't came.
I feel so lonely without your jokes and laugh. I missing it, especially I miss you.
I want to talk with you on Facebook, but I'm so afraid if your girlfriend mad at me. I don't want like that.
I want to call you, but I don't know how.
yeah, I missing you so much, it like I missing my friend. I want you to as someone who special for me, but it so impossible.
do you know if I miss you?
yeah, I guess you don't know cause you're so busy with your girlfriend
I hope only can meet with you for the last time, see your smile and your face. it will make me happy and waste the last time I met with you.
and I hope you happy with here no matter what, even it should hurting my heart and lying with myself. I only want you to happy.
I wish that I was mad at you but I'm not. I wish I didn't care like you don't but I do. and I wish I could go back to wen everything was great but I can't

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Too long

Oh, please. I hope you'll notice this feeling. but it already too long I'm waiting. and I knew if you already have her, but please, I hope you will understand.
didn't realize you I'm a girl? I couldn't start
didn't realize you have to hang myself? I don't want to waiting.
I don't want to waiting too long. this heart always yelling your name all the time. I can't stop this feeling. we're too long so close and you make my feeling like this.
before you had her, all people said if we're like a couple. but I always said we're just friend, but I'm always hope we can be like that.
my little heart always feel hoping when all people said like that. and sometimes my heart act like cheersleader. I know it ridicilous, but I feel like that.
I don't know how long this situation it's on. and I always remains every second if you had her. I feel guitly because this feeling I can't hidded forever.
I'll change it with the way I'm gonna forget this feeling and forget you.
how can I do that if almost everyday I meet you?
I need answer about this feeling. should I keep this feeling until you break up with her? should I forget this feeling and forget you?
I'm confused, I need something answer the best.
for the continous I'll more stronger than before.

always remember that: Hard work makes you stronger, Mistakes makes you smarter, Success keeps you in shape, Sadness makes you human, Happiness makes you sweet


XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; I'm missing the one who used to make me happy all the time!

I'm missing someone who always make me laugh all the time. I'm missing someone who always make me smile. I'm missing someone who make me happy all the time and I'm missing someone who make my days so colorful.
guess who I mean. yeah.. It's YOU. You always do that. but now I'm missing you so much.
since you had girlfriend, you never make me laugh like before. I feel like invisible in your side or only me ignored you? hm.. I don't know. sometimes I looked at you when you not look at me. it make me sad.
I'm cheers me up with I realized I'm still have friends. they will make me with those feeling.
but it still same, I feel missing the important thing in my life. without that, I'm nothing.
yeah I can't forget about that feeling. but I'm trying to forget it. I don't know why. I should remains by myself if you already with her. but it doesn't work. I still want you in my life.

It was easy to meet you, it was beautiful to love you, but it is hard to forget you.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; I still care with you

I don't want our friendship broke again because this problem. I want you still become my best friend, maybe I want become your girlfriend (only in your dream, Leony).
I'll always in your side when you need me. I'll become a good listener when you tell me about your girl, it so hard for me and I must have a great patient to be your good listener. cause if I don't have it, I'll cry all of the time in front of you.
let you tell me about your life, let you tell me about your problem, and that's way I'll know you so well.. and I'll tell you about everything. when you know if I love you, you'll understand why I always be like this.
when I tried to not care with you anymore, I can't. when you sick, my heart not so clam. my heart always asked "Is he fine?" that always on my mind all of the time.
I know if I'm not should like that, but I can't help it. I want to know about your condition. although I'm only your friend, but I can be like that cause I'm being act like I'm fine and your friend. I never can tell you about my feeling.
Please, I hope I can have a chance to tell you about this feeling. if you can't accept this, it's okay for me. I don't care if you will mad at me. I only hope you will understand

How much you hate her/him, in your little heart still care about them

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; What I feel V.S What I know

I feel so in love with you. I want you in my side. I want you waste my tears, make me happy, and always protection me.
but it only in my dream, even in my dream I feel want to cry.
I know you already had her. I know if you love her. I know you always in her side, not my side. you always talking about her with me. I only can smile and said "I'm glad you had her", but there's a storm in my heart and it rains from my eyes. I don't know what should to do now. I feel like lost my way.
there's a war in heart. in one side, I feel guitly because I love you but I know if he have a girlfriend now. and the other side, I want you. I really want you to be my side. I love you like he love her. I don't know how to cope these feeling and problem.
only one I can to do, I let you happy with her and I'm not bother them. it remember me with the movie I watch, 'Boy Before Flowers', I am a Kim Hyung Joon, I let the someone I love happy with other.
you know what, even I don't know your girlfriend. I only know her name (I don't want to tell her name) and that because Facebook I can know her name. she looks (from her profil picture on Facebook) beautiful, cute and sweet. I think she's a 'Mbak Gahol' (do you know what I mean?)
I'll let you with her, although there's a scar in my heart. but I'm happy if you happy. sometimes I hope you'll break up with her (evil though). I'm wait.
it harder to forget this feel. because almost everyday I meet with you. but I try to cope this feel. I become a little more crazy because this feeling.

Everyday just gets a little bit harder, and everyday I try and cope with the pain and the stress hoping that one day, I'll wake up and everything will be okay again.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; The sadness moment

I never thought can be like this. I never feel like this before. you're my close boy-friend at the Subjects Course. every I'm in you side, my heart always beating. I can't help it. and I look at his eyes, OMG, I can't stop smile and make me so guitly.
why I feel guitly? it because you already had a girlfriend now since I told you if I was already had a boyfriend, but I'm lied. I'm so regret already told you like that, cause after I told like that you looked like disapointed or something like that. you asked her to be his girlfriend it 5 days after I told you.
my heart broken when I knew about that news. I know that news from Facebook. I saw on 'Home' and you change your 'Relationship Status' became 'In Relationship'. I don't know what should I do now. my the one chance already gone. actually I have plan to tell you if I love you.
I'm so jealous with them. you always 'Wall To Wall' with your girlfriend on facebook, you do that cause your cell phone confiscated by his parents. so you contact with your girlfriend from there and it make me super jealous.
Until now I'm still regret about what already I told you, that day when I told if I already have boyfriend, my mood not good. cause when I'm online on Facebook, someone I even don't know chatting with me. he introduced about him and I am too. then he (maybe you will surprising) PURPOSE ME! can you believe it! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! can he realized if I'm still younger to like that? and when I said no, he still said "PLEASE" (on my mind that time: WHAT THE HELL HE THINKING? HE'S A FREAK AND CRAZY MAN!) and because that incident, I told him (the boy who I love) if I already have a boyfriend.
I hope I could turn back the time and said if I love you. but it impossible for me. almost every I'm at Subjects Course, I want to cry. I can't help myself when I saw your face in one room with me. how could I can lied at you that night? but when finally I can get you, I afraid after we're break up or something like that, our friendship will destroyed too. but I'm sure, the friendship never be like that. and I never can be his girlfriend.
Love never ruins a friendship. If a friendship was ruined by love, ask again, was it really love - Outrageous (GlamTeen; Heart To Heart)

XOXO

Leony

The Planning

I already think. I want to give you a story about me.
I want share about a whole world from my point of view. all my problem from friendship until love.
I'd love it so much, though.
but it's not like continous story. all story I write it's different.
agree? okay I know you'll agree. and the title is 'The Story Of Me'
it will be huge! :D

XOXO Love - Leony

The National Exam Junior High School 2011

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG!!!
Almost 2 or 3 weeks again The Natinal Exam will come! I can't wait and a little worry.
I hope I can pass with excellent results and can in my dream high school, 5 high school.
Amen! :D
*optimitic!*