Tired with that!

I tired with your insulted on me!

I tired to be patient with you!

I'm sick of with everything you said on me!

maybe you never feel if you become like me!

I know it, because you're feel like A SUPERSTAR!

yeah I know it. but the simple fact;

1. I'll be stronger now than before. and you'll be regret for having insulted me someday.

2. I'm not like you. and I'm not YOUR ROBOT!

3. you always hold me when nobody can help you.

4. I know you are so nice, brave and..... whatever, with all your friends. but you are not so nice for me!

5. and one more thing, YOU DON'T KNOW ME!

you can said whatever you want now about me, but someday I'll show you if I can do more than you!

I'm not give up, okay, but I don't want to

I'm not give up, okay, but I don't want to:

I don't want to broke my friend's heart

I don't want to broke my heart

I don't want to this friendship is ends

I don't want to got problems

I don't want to made a gossip

I don't want to I always cry when this relationship is ends

I don't want feel this world is ends

I want this life is like now

we're still in friedship

you always in here when I need you became my friend

but I can't hide this feel. I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, I WANT YOU!

My funny status

- One day, I'm gonna make the onions cry!

-CAUTION :

don't do anything WHOLE-HEARTEDLY!!!

you may get DIS-HEARTENED!!!

- Life is a game.... you have to play it right or..... you lose

- I advise you, don't mess with me. I know karate, kung fu, Judo, tae kwon do, jujitsu, and 28 others dangerous words

- Did you konw taht yuor barin olny raeds the frist and lsat ltrtes and it doenst mtater if the ltters in bteewen are jmubeld up you can sitll raed it prfeeclty!!

- a simply thought for all you lovely girls- in life do not settle for someone who buys you a coffee, go for someone who makes it for you!

- Some people wonder why I don't say much... I wonder why some people talk so much but never say anything that's worth listening to!

- Abang tukang bakso, mari-mari sini. aku mau beli

- I'm not short. I simply refuse to be taller than those less AWESOME than me!

- I'm the kind of person who laughs at a joke the 1st time you tell it to me...the 2nd time when you explain it to me..and 5 minutes later when I finally get it!

- I put myself in the hospital because i had a Klondike bar in 1 hand but not the other so i beat myself up to decide who got the Klondike bar

- WARNING! Facebook now automatically scans your brain through your monitor. To BLOCK, wrap foil around your head, stay calm & breathe through your left nostril.

- having the love of your life dump you and say "We can still be friends" is like your dog getting ran over and killed and your mom say "You can still keep it"!

- what do you think calories are? .. i think they are little men that hide in your wardrobe and sew your clothes tighter! LOL

- You smell, i smell, you cry, i cry,you die! Woo What happened there? It must of been old age or too much sarcasm!

- Today's word of advice: Don't argue with a nut..You might be attacked by a squirrel.

I'm better without him. but there's a little pain in my heart

26 november 2010

After he died, I tried to can let he go. and everybody told me to be patient.

but I still can't believe he was died. I'm not there when he at hospital. I still can remembered the last time I talked with him on the phone. he laughed, I laughed. I told him if I'm not in love with he (not Dika I mean) again. he so happy when I told him like that.

I'm so happy can heard his laughter. but he can't said if still love me, because his girlfriend in his side.

but just pity, I don't have one picture of he. he don't want I have it (he's so weird).

but now I don't want cry because of him. I want continues my life without cry. I try to won't cry.

and I still can't believe, I STILL LOVE HIM! that's so ridunkulous!

first, I felt so missing he. then I felt so alone without him. and now I felt I'm better without him, but there's a little pain in my heart.

I wrote the date he was died on my calendar. 13 november 2010.

just a little weird, why the date him died it 13? Oh God!

now, time will heal these wounds my heart because he was died

R.I.P ANDHIKA DWI PRATOMO

He'll still alive in my mind and my heart

It's alright, it's ok

Minggu, 21 november 2010

ok, when I watched a video of Ashley Tisdale "It's alright, it's ok", made me remembered someone, (I don't want wrote his name)

he's dumped me because I'm became what he want. ok, I tryed to became what he want, but I can't. cause I'm not a rich girl, fashionable, feminine and popural like he want. I tryed to more fashionable, but I can't. fine, that time I'm a model. but I can't feminine like he want. every we date, I weared dress with blazer. he want me to weared high heels too, but I can't. I weared something like sneakers.

then he told all his friends at his school about it after he broke up with me. and then they laughed at me when I went to his school because my friend, Jessica, want me to came her school. they all laughed at me. then I go out at school and cried. but then I listened a song (I forgot what the tittle and who sang it). just about it why can until I cried? it's me, and I'm pround of myself. and one more think, I'M NOT A ROBOT CAN MAKE LIKE EVERYONE WANT. but I always and still try to be better.

one day, I met with him again at mall with his girlfriend. his girlfriend so feminine, fashionable and looks like a rich girl, like he want.

he saw me and then he and his girlfriend walked into me and say Hi to me and itroduced his girlfriend. we talked more about our self now, actually I hate this coversesion but I must to be nice with him and his girlfriend. then he premision to go to restroom, he left me and his girlfriend, Clara. I asked more about their relationship and about her. and made me surprised, she's a ordinary girl like me, not a rich girl. she has that dress and anything from her friends and her cousin. I couldn't believe it first time I know it, but then she asked me why I can know about him. I told her if I'm a ex-girlfriend of him, she looked so shocked. and I told her why he broke up with me. she looked couldn't believe too. and the story I told her like her, her said if every she date with him she should to looking so fashionable, feminine and a rich girl.

and I suggest her to broke up with him, but she can't. cause she so in love with him. I told her "if you still like this, you'll so regret someday" and then I left alone her.

and one and a half month later I met with Clara again at mall again, she seat alone with eated her ice cream. I walked into her, she looked so surprised saw me. I asked her about him and she answered if him broke up with her like he broke up with me. she cried and then I listened her a song from Asheley Tisdale. she looked at me, confused. I told her "it's ok, you'll be fine. you can cry until your body refuses to produce anymore tears. and you'll stronger now" she smiled at me and she liked "It's alright it's ok". she want me to go home with me, and I want it. we talked more, when we at cars parking we saw him then we walked into him. I asked "Hi, what happened? why are you alone here?" I saw him with the dirtiest look. and he answered "my girlfriend broke up with me" I smiled evil "See, this because you always hurted any girl like me and Clara. is so hurt, isn't it?" he hid her head with his hand "I really sorry Leony and Clara" I smiled evil again "no, you're not sorry. we gotta go." when I turned back, clara pulled my hand "wait. I have one more thing for him" she walked into him and then slaped his face and then turned back with me.

now, I like "It's alright, it's ok" song of Ashely Tisdale

You told me

There's no need

To talk it out

Cause its too late

To proceed

And slowly

I took your words

And walked away

No looking back

I wont regret, no

I will find my way

I'm broken

But still I have to say

It's Alright, it's OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK

So don't you bother what I do

No matter what you say

I wont return

Our bridge has burned down

I'm stronger now

It's Alright, it's OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

You played me

Betrayed me

Your love was nothing but a game

Portrayed a role

You took control, I

I couldn't help but fall

So deep

But now I see things clear

It's Alright, it's OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK

So don't you bother what I do

No matter what you say

I wont return

Our bridge has burned down

I'm stronger now

It's Alright, it's OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

Don't waste your fiction tears on me

Just save them for someone in need

It's way too late

I'm closing the door

It's Alright, OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK

So don't you bother what I do

No matter what you say

I wont return

Our bridge has burned down

I'm stronger now

It's Alright, it's OK

I'm so much better without you

I won't be sorry

It's Alright, it's OK

Alright, OK

Without you

No matter what you say

It's Alright, it's OK

Alright, OK

Without you

I won't be sorry

The end for my story. I'll tell you another story. bye ^^

R.I.P my best friend, my best boy ever, ANDHIKA DWI PRATOMO

senin, 15 november 2010

tepat 2 hari yang lalu kau telah tiada, tepat pukul 23.55 kau meninggalkan orang-orang yang menyayangimu dan kau sayang, termasuk aku.

aku mendapatkan kabar ini hari minggu pagi saat aku baru saja pulang dari LDK OSIS di sekolah. kakak mu menghubungi sambil menangis, setiap ia menelpon untuk memberitahu keadaanmu, dia selalu menangis. aku merasa tidak terhubung lagi dengan ragaku saat mendengar berita itu.

beberapa hari sebelumnya, aku mendapat kabar kalau pacar kamu marah-marah karena kamu lebih sering mengigau memanggil namaku (yang goblok tu siapa sih, orang lagi koma malah di marahin). aku marah saat mendengar kabar itu. seharusnya pacarmu dapat lebih pengertian setelah kakak mu menceritakan kalau kamu masih sayang sama aku ke dia.

hatiku hancur saat mengetahui berita itu, karena aku masih sayang kamu. aku bahkan membuat video untuk mu juga.

mungkin ini udah jalan yang terbaik untukmu...

selama tinggal sahabat, teman, lelaki terhebat bagiku.

R.I.P ANDHIKA DWI PRATOMO

YOU'LL ALWAYS IN MY HEART, BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BEST BOY EVER I HAVE IT :')

THANKS YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME ABOUT THE MEANING THE LIFE, FRIENDSHIP AND TRUE LOVE :')

you want me to can understand you, but you CAN'T understand me!

you always order me!

you always said if you always right!

you mad when I do right

can you understand my feel?!

said whatever you want. and you said I CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU?!

hello, YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND ME actually!

just one say for you, WHAT THE FUCK!

i don't you you order me!

you are not my boss!