The Story Of Me: High School Life not always fun like what people thought

First, when I was still in Junior High School, I really want so early in High School cause much of people said if high school life was so fun. you can reach who you are and you can trying the new things for yourself.

but for me, high school life is SUCK! why? because I always in depresed mood. started from my new school until my parents.

The Story Of Me: I'm so regret asked you to helped. in the end, you make me disapointed

28 October 2011

I just got a challenge to make a movie. I'm so excited with that! :D like you know if my dream is to be a Movie Director and this is my first step. with help from my friends from Cinematography, Tia, Sheila and Mbak Eva, I make this movie

The Story Of Me: I wrote whatever I want to on my hands

Today I made 2 doodles on my hands with my close friend, Atria.

first I randomly wrote my crushing, Yudha. I took the red of the markers (that Atria's) after I wrote it on my

The Story Of Me: New look!

yeah, I'm waiting a week to got this thing.

last week I was cheeked my eyes cause I can't see far. I guess there's something wrong with my eyes. and I am right!

The Story Of Me: Missed you. AGAIN?!!

I don't know who you are and where are you now. It 3 months already we didn't talk anymore. you are so busy with 'your popular life' and I am busy with 'waiting for REAL you comeback'. didn't you know why I do that? didn't you ever notice every status on facebook you 'Like' is about and only for you.

The Story Of Me: The Different Of Me And My Brother

Since I'm in High School (YEAAAAH, FINALLY! :D) my parents and my new teachers always discriminate against me and my brother. it all because I'm school in same school like my brother, but my brother graduated already.

The Story Of Me: I'm accept your sorry with one condition, you buy me an Ice Cream :)

Yeah, after long time we aren't talk anymore, now you started to talk with me again. actually I'm not mad at you, but it was funny can prank you like that. I'll forgive you if you buy me an Ice cream. LOL

and you said agree.

The Story Of Me: only said SORRY?!

Last night my friend was texted to me. she said if she chat with you on Facebook (It's not fear! you were ignored my chat even my texted!) and she said if you SORRY because not reply at all my wall, chat or texted!
only said SORRY?!

The Story Of Me; Your birthday

Today is your birthday. but I can't give you something. I truly want to give you something, but I didn't because I'm afraid your girlfriend will mad.

I only sent you 'Happy Birthday' on your Facebook account and with hope you will reply my wall. and you will say if you miss me so much, as friend I mean.

keep dreaming if you miss me as more than friend.

but you ignoring me! you never reply my wall or text. FINE!

If I want to, I can do better than you. maybe I can hate you like before! but I don't want and I can't!

I always make you as my status on Facebook or Twitter. but every you 'like' my status on Facebook, I guess you don't realize if that status for you!

and until this time, this second, I still hoping you!

my wallpaper on my phone is your photo. I stolen it from your Facebook (I'm a naughty girl)

the hard time is today. when I know today is your birthday. cause I'm not your friend anymore!

I should to give up to hope you and love you and I should to moving on!

I'm missing you, can you sense it? I guess not!

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Disappear

I remember the first time, but it wasn't the last time, that you told me you'd take me back. So I'm still wondering why there was never a question. I should've learned my lesson and I keep coming back like a heart attack that's always breaking.

I can't let you vanish, there's no magic when you're gone

you say you don't need me you say it's time to leave me and I don't wanna hear it. I don't wanna believe it. I'm not gonna let you disappear

I don't wanna be lonely, but you are always the only one who'd cast a spell and make it feel like all of this was real. Nothing but an illusion but I'm not gonna lose you. So just do your trick and make it quick because i'm pretending. Dont go! because I need you in my side.

I know if you with her, but I always in your behind and I'll support. no matter what happen, I want you be MINE!

II don't care if you already have a thousand girlfriend, because I want YOU more than EVERYTHING!

I'm not gonna let you disappear like the wind! you always be my shadow!

Sometimes you have to be apart from the ones you love, but that doesn't make you love them less. Sometimes it makes you love them more. -The Last Song-

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Still hoping on you

I don't have idea. I don't know how until now I still hoping you, although I know you with her now. when I saw your picture, I had an idea to stolen it, but I didn't.

Yeah.. this feel make me crazy. I always smile when I saw your picture. and when I saw your message with her, my smile was gone.

sometimes you are in my dreams, you smile at me, you hold my hand, you make me laugh, you say 'I love you'. that the sweet dreams I had with you.

but that dream always gone when she in your behind and suddenly she hugged you. yeah, it make me hurt. very hurt.

sometimes in my dream, when she hugged you, I' pulled you away from her and then I hugged and kissed you. LOL (keep dreaming Leony)

I love the way you are, you make me laugh, even on Facebook, you make me comfortable while flying next to you, you cheers me up when my day so sad, and you waste my tears.

I'll take all memories when I'm with you. when we are played basketball, when you came to my house cause I'm alone in my house.

yeah, all sweet memories we had I'll take it forever. cause almost every minute, that memories always in my mind.

take care, my Boy. I always in your behind and saw you happy with her. you're too mean for me.

Isn't it crazy how the world is billions of people, and yet one person can mean the world.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Lonely

The last time I met you was last week. since last week, I can't met you, even when yesterday monday until wednesday you doesn't came to GO for Try Out. you doesn't came because, first, your dad is sick and he in Hospital. second, you had Try Out too at your school. that's why you doesn't came.

I feel so lonely without your jokes and laugh. I missing it, especially I miss you.

I want to talk with you on Facebook, but I'm so afraid if your girlfriend mad at me. I don't want like that.

I want to call you, but I don't know how.

yeah, I missing you so much, it like I missing my friend. I want you to as someone who special for me, but it so impossible.

do you know if I miss you?

yeah, I guess you don't know cause you're so busy with your girlfriend

I hope only can meet with you for the last time, see your smile and your face. it will make me happy and waste the last time I met with you.

and I hope you happy with here no matter what, even it should hurting my heart and lying with myself. I only want you to happy.

I wish that I was mad at you but I'm not. I wish I didn't care like you don't but I do. and I wish I could go back to wen everything was great but I can't

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; Too long

Oh, please. I hope you'll notice this feeling. but it already too long I'm waiting. and I knew if you already have her, but please, I hope you will understand.

didn't realize you I'm a girl? I couldn't start

didn't realize you have to hang myself? I don't want to waiting.

I don't want to waiting too long. this heart always yelling your name all the time. I can't stop this feeling. we're too long so close and you make my feeling like this.

before you had her, all people said if we're like a couple. but I always said we're just friend, but I'm always hope we can be like that.

my little heart always feel hoping when all people said like that. and sometimes my heart act like cheersleader. I know it ridicilous, but I feel like that.

I don't know how long this situation it's on. and I always remains every second if you had her. I feel guitly because this feeling I can't hidded forever.

I'll change it with the way I'm gonna forget this feeling and forget you.

how can I do that if almost everyday I meet you?

I need answer about this feeling. should I keep this feeling until you break up with her? should I forget this feeling and forget you?

I'm confused, I need something answer the best.

for the continous I'll more stronger than before.

always remember that: Hard work makes you stronger, Mistakes makes you smarter, Success keeps you in shape, Sadness makes you human, Happiness makes you sweet

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; I'm missing the one who used to make me happy all the time!

I'm missing someone who always make me laugh all the time. I'm missing someone who always make me smile. I'm missing someone who make me happy all the time and I'm missing someone who make my days so colorful.

guess who I mean. yeah.. It's YOU. You always do that. but now I'm missing you so much.

since you had girlfriend, you never make me laugh like before. I feel like invisible in your side or only me ignored you? hm.. I don't know. sometimes I looked at you when you not look at me. it make me sad.

I'm cheers me up with I realized I'm still have friends. they will make me with those feeling.

but it still same, I feel missing the important thing in my life. without that, I'm nothing.

yeah I can't forget about that feeling. but I'm trying to forget it. I don't know why. I should remains by myself if you already with her. but it doesn't work. I still want you in my life.

It was easy to meet you, it was beautiful to love you, but it is hard to forget you.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; I still care with you

I don't want our friendship broke again because this problem. I want you still become my best friend, maybe I want become your girlfriend (only in your dream, Leony).

I'll always in your side when you need me. I'll become a good listener when you tell me about your girl, it so hard for me and I must have a great patient to be your good listener. cause if I don't have it, I'll cry all of the time in front of you.

let you tell me about your life, let you tell me about your problem, and that's way I'll know you so well.. and I'll tell you about everything. when you know if I love you, you'll understand why I always be like this.

when I tried to not care with you anymore, I can't. when you sick, my heart not so clam. my heart always asked "Is he fine?" that always on my mind all of the time.

I know if I'm not should like that, but I can't help it. I want to know about your condition. although I'm only your friend, but I can be like that cause I'm being act like I'm fine and your friend. I never can tell you about my feeling.

Please, I hope I can have a chance to tell you about this feeling. if you can't accept this, it's okay for me. I don't care if you will mad at me. I only hope you will understand

How much you hate her/him, in your little heart still care about them

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; What I feel V.S What I know

I feel so in love with you. I want you in my side. I want you waste my tears, make me happy, and always protection me.

but it only in my dream, even in my dream I feel want to cry.

I know you already had her. I know if you love her. I know you always in her side, not my side. you always talking about her with me. I only can smile and said "I'm glad you had her", but there's a storm in my heart and it rains from my eyes. I don't know what should to do now. I feel like lost my way.

there's a war in heart. in one side, I feel guitly because I love you but I know if he have a girlfriend now. and the other side, I want you. I really want you to be my side. I love you like he love her. I don't know how to cope these feeling and problem.

only one I can to do, I let you happy with her and I'm not bother them. it remember me with the movie I watch, 'Boy Before Flowers', I am a Kim Hyung Joon, I let the someone I love happy with other.

you know what, even I don't know your girlfriend. I only know her name (I don't want to tell her name) and that because Facebook I can know her name. she looks (from her profil picture on Facebook) beautiful, cute and sweet. I think she's a 'Mbak Gahol' (do you know what I mean?)

I'll let you with her, although there's a scar in my heart. but I'm happy if you happy. sometimes I hope you'll break up with her (evil though). I'm wait.

it harder to forget this feel. because almost everyday I meet with you. but I try to cope this feel. I become a little more crazy because this feeling.

Everyday just gets a little bit harder, and everyday I try and cope with the pain and the stress hoping that one day, I'll wake up and everything will be okay again.

XOXO

Leony

The Story Of Me; The sadness moment

I never thought can be like this. I never feel like this before. you're my close boy-friend at the Subjects Course. every I'm in you side, my heart always beating. I can't help it. and I look at his eyes, OMG, I can't stop smile and make me so guitly.
why I feel guitly? it because you already had a girlfriend now since I told you if I was already had a boyfriend, but I'm lied. I'm so regret already told you like that, cause after I told like that you looked like disapointed or something like that. you asked her to be his girlfriend it 5 days after I told you.
my heart broken when I knew about that news. I know that news from Facebook. I saw on 'Home' and you change your 'Relationship Status' became 'In Relationship'. I don't know what should I do now. my the one chance already gone. actually I have plan to tell you if I love you.
I'm so jealous with them. you always 'Wall To Wall' with your girlfriend on facebook, you do that cause your cell phone confiscated by his parents. so you contact with your girlfriend from there and it make me super jealous.
Until now I'm still regret about what already I told you, that day when I told if I already have boyfriend, my mood not good. cause when I'm online on Facebook, someone I even don't know chatting with me. he introduced about him and I am too. then he (maybe you will surprising) PURPOSE ME! can you believe it! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! can he realized if I'm still younger to like that? and when I said no, he still said "PLEASE" (on my mind that time: WHAT THE HELL HE THINKING? HE'S A FREAK AND CRAZY MAN!) and because that incident, I told him (the boy who I love) if I already have a boyfriend.
I hope I could turn back the time and said if I love you. but it impossible for me. almost every I'm at Subjects Course, I want to cry. I can't help myself when I saw your face in one room with me. how could I can lied at you that night? but when finally I can get you, I afraid after we're break up or something like that, our friendship will destroyed too. but I'm sure, the friendship never be like that. and I never can be his girlfriend.

Love never ruins a friendship. If a friendship was ruined by love, ask again, was it really love - Outrageous (GlamTeen; Heart To Heart)

XOXO

Leony

The Planning

I already think. I want to give you a story about me.

I want share about a whole world from my point of view. all my problem from friendship until love.

I'd love it so much, though.

but it's not like continous story. all story I write it's different.

agree? okay I know you'll agree. and the title is 'The Story Of Me'

it will be huge! :D

XOXO Love - Leony

The National Exam Junior High School 2011

OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG, OMG!!!

Almost 2 or 3 weeks again The Natinal Exam will come! I can't wait and a little worry.

I hope I can pass with excellent results and can in my dream high school, 5 high school.

Amen! :D

*optimitic!*

My third reunion with my friends of elementary school (best day!)

Holla, guys. yesterday is my another best day ever with them. I'm so excited to sharing with you. okay, let's read this.

Saturday, 26 march 2011

we (Arum, Amithya, Talida, Duhita, Tika, Anis, Me, Arbi, Rizky, Yudi, Ilham, Sondhy, Bram and many more) had a plan to came to school. I was invited with some friends, like Rosita and Kintha. I am so excited with this plan. almost 3 months we're not met each other, maybe only on Twitter and Facebook. I'm missed them so much. Arum, Anis and Amithya will joined with Talida in her car. Me, Duhita and Tika with our motorbike.

I was ditching school to met with them. but I'm a little late to came elementary school. I was parking in front school. I'm texted Arum to asked her where her now. she said if she and all in cafetariant. First I met with all my teachers in teacher's office. every teacher called with if I'm beautiful and little thin now (OMG, made me so touch) after that, I going to cafetariant and met with them. we're laughed, talked about teacher at our school and anything. then Rosita and Kintha came.

after nobody at school again (I mean students of my elementary school), we're planned again to hang out. we're so cunfused want to go. and then we're go to Citraland.

we went to Duhita and Tika's house to drop our motorbike (even me) and then we're went to Citraland with Talida's car (no boys. they're went with their motorbike)

when we are at Citraland, we didn't know want to went first. Amithya want to went Gunung Agung's bookstore. actually we (except Amithya) don't want to went to The Bookstore, but I thought) it's okay. and I wanna searched the novel I want to.

after from The Bookstore, we walked again (like the kids missing) and when we're in front the KFC, we didn't know want to ate there or not. and finally we're ate in Chicken Red.

we're difficulty to ate there. cause the plate a little small and we should ate with spoon (not like usually) but finally we can ate it!

after ate, we went to home. I'm went to Duhita"s house to got my motorbike. before I went to home, I went to Tika's house. we are talked again.

and then I walked to Duhita's house and went to home.

I'm so happy can met with them again. I hope the last reunion, all my classmates can come.

See, it's sound so fun, right? I hope you enjoy read this. next time I'll tell more about my life. Bye. xoxo Love - Leony

I'm waiting

I never bored waiting you. I'm still waiting you until now!

you always be there for me. make me smile again if I'm sad, you cheers me up. and when he make me annoyed, he know if that make me angry and then she apologize.

sometimes he texted me. I always want to say if "I LOVE HIM" but I'm not brave tp say it.

because I know my friend still love him, even she already had a boyfriend.

but I still want you.sometimes and e talked with my friend, not with me, I'm so jealous!

until now nobody knows my feeling. only me and God know that.

but I hope you will notice my feeling and then you said if "YOU LOVE ME TOO"

but I think, it only my dream!

A little curious

Last february, Mbak Tina (Dika's big sister. remember dika?), called me. she said if miss me, especially after Dika die, and she told me if Dika had 3 valentine's present for me. he bought that before he die.

Mbak Tina said if Dika will give me;

1. ring's necklace

2. novel

3. still make me curious.

She didn't know what's on that present. and that make me a little curious what is on the last present

she promise with me if she will send all the presents after she had a freetime.

3 years we're be BEST FRIENDS. now we're become ENEMY!

> Firsf year

We're met on MOS. we're from different elementary school and we're became classmates after MOS . after that, we doing some things together. like go to pray at Masjid near our school, do assigments, watching movie, hang out, and many more.

we got fighted because you thought I broke your novel. I already told you if I didn't broke your novel. and then we're didn't each other talked anymore. after 5 weeks we're didn't talked anymore, finally you talked with me again. our friendship was beginning again.

> Second years

we still doing same things like before, but we're not became classmate anymore. this situation didn't make our friendship broken. we still help each others. we didn't had problem this year. when we'll became 9th, we had study tour to Bali. we're became roommates. we did crazier things in room. we're played music. you woke me up with attack me with pillows. we're take pictures with a monkey. it will be sweet memories.

> Third years

We had big problem. okay only me have a big problem. because my problem we're fight until now. I can't tell you what's my problem. I doing this because I LOVE YOU, NOT because I HATE YOU. I knew if you mad at me from Twitter, you said if I'm become betrayed. but whatever you said to me, I STILL LOVE YOU. maybe now you hate me. but it's okay.

I only want to know; did you ever asked me what's my problem? why you not asked me? you only silent and didn't told me.

Now I know if our friendship DESTROYED!

Who Says - Selena Gomez

Finally its out! Selena’s brand new Single “Who Says“!! You can go listen to it on Ryan Seacrest’s Face book page or below. In my opinion she gets better everytime, its beautiful and empowering and we know its gonna do well!!! The full lyrics for Selena’s new single “Who Says” has been officially released. I really think its so beautiful and empowering! Its definitely spreading a very positive message and I couldn’t be more proud of Selena. The song premiere on Ryan Seacrest.

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else.
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful
Who says

It’s such a funny thing
How nothing’s funny when it’s you
You tell ‘em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It’s like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na
Na na na

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

Na na na
Na na na

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

[Bridge]
Who says
Who says you’re not start potential
Who says you’re not presidential
Who says you can’t be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don’t pass the test
Who says you can’t be the best
Who said, who said
Won’t you tell me who said that
Yeah, oh

[Chorus]
Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

Every single night think about you

can you feel every single night I think about you?

can you see sometimes I cried because of you?

yeah, I guess you can't feel and see it.

I hope you can feel and see it. you so far away from me now. I can't see you anymore. I can't hear your voice and laugh anymore.

the star. you become a star now on the night sky. you shine on me every night. you lull me with the cool evening breeze.

we ran in the beach, we laugh together, sing together, play together, eat ice cream, and all we used to do together. but all it is only in my dreams.

I hope you still in here for make me happy. but it so impossible to be come true.

I'm back

Hi, hi. what's up, guys? long time I'm not posting something

it was because my internet connection in my house was trouble and I don't have enough money borrow the computer.

but I'M HERE NOW! feel better when I can here again.

okay, guys. it's on!