but it only in my dream, even in my dream I feel want to cry.
I know you already had her. I know if you love her. I know you always in her side, not my side. you always talking about her with me. I only can smile and said "I'm glad you had her", but there's a storm in my heart and it rains from my eyes. I don't know what should to do now. I feel like lost my way.
there's a war in heart. in one side, I feel guitly because I love you but I know if he have a girlfriend now. and the other side, I want you. I really want you to be my side. I love you like he love her. I don't know how to cope these feeling and problem.
only one I can to do, I let you happy with her and I'm not bother them. it remember me with the movie I watch, 'Boy Before Flowers', I am a Kim Hyung Joon, I let the someone I love happy with other.
you know what, even I don't know your girlfriend. I only know her name (I don't want to tell her name) and that because Facebook I can know her name. she looks (from her profil picture on Facebook) beautiful, cute and sweet. I think she's a 'Mbak Gahol' (do you know what I mean?)
I'll let you with her, although there's a scar in my heart. but I'm happy if you happy. sometimes I hope you'll break up with her (evil though). I'm wait.
it harder to forget this feel. because almost everyday I meet with you. but I try to cope this feel. I become a little more crazy because this feeling.
Everyday just gets a little bit harder, and everyday I try and cope with the pain and the stress hoping that one day, I'll wake up and everything will be okay again.
XOXO
Leony
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